Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Locked and Loaded

I'm 1dp5dt. Here begins the waiting game.  Luckily since we waited until blast we've done some of the waiting already. I took all day off yesterday even though my transfer wasn't scheduled until 2:00.  In usual fashion, Jason and I arrived about 20 minutes early.  After a long wait, holding my pee the whole time, the baby maker said it was time.  I have 9 lovely blasts.  That was the number I wanted to hear.  I knew that with 9 we'd have a really good chance of one (or two) of those becoming a take home baby.

The transfer itself went well.  It's really uncomfortable having the ultrasound technician push on an already full bladder but overall it wasn't so bad.  Everyone who works at at the clinic are so friendly.  It's so nice to see smiling eyes at every turn.  I really do believe it makes a difference when there is love and hope in the room.  After the transfer I was wheeled back into the room where Jason was waiting for me.  For about forty minutes I lay flat on my back watching The Best of Will Farrell.  It doesn't matter how many time I watch that I laugh every time.  I wondered to myself if I, maybe, shouldn't be laughing.  But, like hope and love, laughter is essential, so it was a fleeting thought.  After I couldn't hold my pee any longer I got up, got dressed, hugged my favorite nurse goodbye and got in the car.

I cried on the way home.  I think it was just a release of so many emotions.  I still feel very hopeful and optimistic.  I, also, feel as though I'm running out of steam a bit.

Today I stayed home from work to rest.  I'm looking forward to getting back and keeping busy until beta day next week.

For now, I'm holding onto hope.  

10 comments:

  1. 9 blasts is awesome! I also think it's important for transfer to go smoothly and for everyone involved to be hopeful and calm. Best of luck. The waiting can be tough. Keeping everything crossed for you.

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  2. Best of luck to you and hoping for a big beta result next week!

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  3. From the bottom of my heart,I wish you a fruitful outcome and loads and loads of babydust. X

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  4. Ahh I was thinking about you guys on Monday, 9 sounds like a great number, so pleased for you guys good luck and fingers crossed for you x

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  5. I was worried about laughing after the transfer, too. My clinic gives Valium at the transfer and both times it has given me the giggles. An Israeli study did show that laughter improves success rates so maybe it will work for us! Wishing you the best.

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  6. Yay!!! So very very excited for you. I cried a lot too on that day. I thought it was a very releasing day as well. Try to stay in your head, one day at a time. I'm assuming you transferred 2? Soooo hopeful for you. Are you going ot pee on a stick or just wait until the beta?

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  7. Best wishes for the next wait and heres to a hooray moment : )

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  8. Awesome news, Kate! Did you get all 9 put into you in the transfer? Hoping and praying that you get some positive news next week!

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    1. All 9! No way! We don't want to be jason and kate plus eight! We transferred 3, which still scares me. The rest are on the rocks.

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  9. Sending you so much love from just down the stairs!!

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